I no longer need you.

I thought it would be painful, letting you go.

I thought I would suffer, that my heart would be anguished with the loss of you. Or worse, maybe it would stop beating altogether.

Maybe without you, I would simply cease to exist.

I thought I would become adrift, for you had been the anchor I had formed my identity upon, the compass I had relied on for my direction. I thought without you I would become lost, disoriented.

I had expected to taste salty tears as they fell upon lips that once spoke so fondly of you; that my head would lay on my pillow damp with tears for as many nights as the moon continued to kiss the stars.

But one day, I just knew.

I hadn’t expected such a feeling of relief as I cut the ropes that once shackled me to you. One instant of tremendous clarity. One instant, where I finally knew.

I no longer needed you.

I no longer needed your opinion of me, your affirmation, your approval.

I no longer needed your judgments, your criticisms, your condemnations.

I no longer needed your expectations I could never meet; your hoops too high to jump through, your goal posts that shifted with every changing breeze.

I no longer needed your blame, your excuses, your justifications.

I no longer needed your pseudo love, fraught with conditions and attached with strings.

I thought I needed you. I didn’t.

I thought it would be hard to let you go. It wasn’t.

I thought I would miss you. I don’t.

For in one instant my heart was awakened to the truth of who I am.

I am more than the lies you made believe about myself. I am more than the look of failure in your eyes when I fell short of your demands. I am more than how worthless you made me feel. I am more than the ways you tried to break me.

I am a warrior, sculpted by the hands of creation, fashioned into being by the very hands that created the oceans and the stars and the mountains and air.

I am strong, I am brave, I am wise. I am gentle of spirit with the heart of a lioness.

I am creative, passionate, sensitive, and kind. I am of open heart and open mind. I am powerful, generous, thoughtful, daring, empathetic, raw, complex, courageous, understanding, forgiving.

I am everything you are not.

I will no longer carry the shame you made me suffer under the weight of.

That shame belongs to you.

And I will no longer carry my hate for you.

For that will only ever bind me to your darkness and give you permission to destroy my light. It will allow you to stay within me, to destroy my peace, to blacken my heart with the malice that lives within you.

It will tie me to your soul-destroying bitterness, your ugliness.

It will anchor me once more to you, who tried to drown me.

Instead, I will choose to go into the world and love more fiercely, show more compassion, be more generous, offer more kindness.

I will choose to forgive. For me, not for you.

I will choose to sow what I wish to see reaped for my children’s future.

I will choose to dis-empower hate.

I will choose freedom.

I will choose love.

I will stand firm upon the unshakeable truth of who I am.

And I will soar to heights you will only ever dream of.

For I have let you go.

No longer am I held down by all I allowed you to be in my life.

I no longer need you.

I am free.

Written by Kathy Parker

( with permission)

Kathy Parker is a Warrior. Dreamer. Creator. Writer. Fighter of all that is beautiful and good. Advocator for the underdog. Truth-teller. Empath. Passionate soul. Lover of land and ocean. Coffee drinker. Gentle spirit. Sensitive soul. Wild heart. Survivor. She is a freelance writer, blogger for HuffPost Australia, and columnist for elephant journal who is currently writing her first manuscript.

Married to a farmer in the Limestone Coast of South Australia, she is also a mother to four astonishing children.

Find out more about Kathy at her blog: https://kathyparker.com.au/

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  1. Oh How true this is. The day I knew I had to cut all strings. It was like a day when you open all the windows in your house after a long winter. I feel so free now. No longer having to listen to your fake love. I know now you never ever loved me. Just what you could get from me and how much power you had over me. Right down to always making me late. You were in power then. Well no more! I am stronger now and getting stronger by the day. I am so happy that I figured your game out. I read books. They describe word for word the things you said to me. Im sure you read all about how to be the way you are and con anything out of anyone. I now know when I told you when we first met. That I thought you were a gypsy. You looked at me like oh no she figured me out. I should have listened to my gut. But in hind sight you taught me alot. To never get involved with someone that seems to good to be true. What a joke this whole farse was.

  2. I can not imagine that there are people who exploit love, make people dependent and possess them and exercise power. This has nothing to do with love. If there is such a thing, then I sincerely wish the victims to be able to solve themselves.
    Love is never “I need you” It is always an “I want to be with you”. To exercise power in love means that one does not trust one another or simply does not love one another. When you are not trusting, there is a lack of communication and of feeling for the other, which you build up when you are together, hugging each other, and looking each other in the eye. eye contact and body contact often speaks more than 1000 words!

  3. Very good expression of “what went wrong”In a relationship.
    I lived 24 years lowering my self esteem each day. Finally I was free, Billy Joel song,this is my life!

  4. noonespecial there are people like that. They are called Narrcisistic Sociopaths. Read up on them. You will then understand what I dealt with.

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