To encourage you to keep going.
To remind you to be strong.

Published on May 28, 2018 in Picture Quotes



You haven’t always been this way.

You haven’t always been a body lined with thorns, a heart wrapped in razor wire; hard lines and jaded eyes.

Distant, aloof, guarded.

There was a time you were shades of pastel; when your heart knew love, and trust rested freely upon your fingertips.

There was a time your days were painted with innocence. Where eager eyes gazed at the world with hope and wonder, your heart still shiny and new.

But all of this changed the moment you were betrayed by someone you loved. Someone you trusted. Someone who should have protected you. Someone who hurt you instead. Someone who allowed you to be hurt by others.

There is little else that shatters a heart as much as the pain of betrayal. It tears you open, rips your heart out of your chest. You don’t want to put it back, you want to leave it on the floor to bleed until there is nothing left, until the blood runs dry and you no longer have to feel a damn thing anymore. But you can’t. You have to go on. So you pick your heart off the floor and place it back inside your hollow chest.

Except, the heart that you put back is never the same heart. It is wounded, war-torn. It no longer seeks love, but only to protect itself from the pain of ever being betrayed again.

A heart that is betrayed is changed forever.

No longer will it trust anyone again, but greets every person with reservation and fear; wary of a world that has proven to only take advantage for its own benefit. It remains hyper-vigilant in its desperate need to prove itself right; forever searching for the cracks inside another person that prove they too are unworthy of trust. It needs to know its enemy. It needs to remain one step in front at all times. Kindness is met with suspicion, for your heart has learned nothing comes without a cost – there are always strings, always an agenda. Your heart rejects kindness, remains cynical of it, refuses to accept it. It would rather suffer on its own than accept kindness that allows it to become vulnerable to another.

Your heart no longer knows how to trust itself either, and it makes vows to stay hard, to stay tough. Never will I want again. Never will I need again. Never will I trust again. Never will I love again. These vows are the cornerstones of the fortress it builds around itself, the strongholds that keep the walls in place. It gives up hope of ever being protected and instead learns to protect itself. It becomes a slave to its independence, its autonomy. Here, in its fortress, it is safe. Here, behind its walls, it can remain distant, removed.

Here, your heart can trust itself not to feel. 

For betrayal has taught your heart how dangerous it is to feel. To want, to need. To desire love, relationship, connection. No, your heart must deaden itself to its desires. It must wake each morning with one goal of attack – to kill your hungry soul. To destroy your desires before they destroy you. Your heart cannot afford to want, it is too dangerous, too much of a risk that will lead to being hurt again. This is how your heart stays safe – it refuses to be tempted by love ever again.

Except, your heart was created for relationship. Your heart was created for intimacy. But intimacy is the enemy, the biggest threat. Intimacy requires your heart to be vulnerable, to let someone close. To betray its own desires in the hope it will not be betrayed because of them. Intimacy is the most dangerous of all, and your heart turns itself away and chooses to live without hope of relationship, of closeness, of oneness with another.

Betrayal has changed your heart.

It has damaged your heart.

It has left it powerless, helpless, vulnerable, wounded, damaged, guarded, broken. Your heart can no longer trust, does not trust. It no longer believes in the goodness of anyone else’s heart. It no longer believes it is worthy of being loved, of being protected. It is tired from living in a constant state of anticipation and expectation that it will be hurt and betrayed once more. It no longer wants to love, no longer knows how to love. It has become numb, deadened to its desires, and you tell yourself you are content with this.

That here, you are safe. You are in control. You are untouchable.

Except, you are lonely. So goddamn lonely.

And this is the paradox of betrayal.

You are scared of relationship, yet relationship is the very thing that will heal your heart.

Dear heart, there is a need for you to be safe.

But there is a greater need for you to be loved.

The only way to heal is through love. You must find the courage to pull down your fortress. It has kept you safe. But you have dwelled long enough in your solitude. In your loneliness. It is time to lay down your weapons. Surrender is not defeat, but the end of the fight.

To love is to risk hurt. To trust is to risk betrayal. But you must risk so that you may heal.

Your heart has learned how to stay safe, how to survive.

Now, it must learn how to once again love.

Written by Kathy Parker

( with permission)

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  1. Ll May 28, 2018 Reply


  2. Lesley May 28, 2018 Reply

    So very true!

  3. Jane May 30, 2018 Reply

    Ive been hurt twice. Ive lost the want to love again.x

    • Sudhir Gupta May 30, 2018 Reply

      Jane I don’t know in what situation you are and what happened. But I can surely feel the pain you will be going through as I am as well in the same situation. It is tough to get back on your feet and walk again, but hold on to your life. Life surely becomes miserable when you are betrayed by the same person whom you loved the most in your life, but if they didn’t care twice then we should also move on. I know it’s not easy and it will never be. Take care dear

  4. David November 14, 2018 Reply

    When I lost the love of my life, I was closed for over 20 years. I was opened but it happened again. At that time I vowed never again to avoid love.

  5. R S November 14, 2018 Reply

    I forgot how it feels to be loved.
    I have been broken many times and now feel numb.
    Whenever I think of the hurt I feel the pain in my heart. It’s real.
    I want to give up.
    So turn and so lost.

  6. Jenna November 14, 2018 Reply

    Not really providing any tips to help a scorned heart, just reminders of the pain lol

  7. James November 14, 2018 Reply

    Don’t give up, love you’re own life so much that you will attract another person to you if that’s what you give out, be joyful and amazingky happy with you’re life, too busy to even think you’re lonely and before you know it youre life will be complete and again if ankther person arrives for you it is to be 😊… Just my thoughts, sending you much joy

  8. Leanne Hall November 15, 2018 Reply

    I’m going through the same a totally broken heart which is killing me inside and outside and declare to myself my heart will never be hurt again. The pain, emptiness,loneliness is unbearable where there is no point in anything. Everyday is a struggle, nightmare waiting to wake up so it’s not real but it is and the grief is so disgustingly painful and consuming that I wonder if it will ever stop. To love again is for me just more pain and hurt which I can simply not allow, for now I’m so broken that i dont think i will ever heal from this. Advice to heal??

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