To encourage you to keep going.
To remind you to be strong.

Published on December 10, 2017 in Picture Quotes



You haven’t always been this way.

You haven’t always been a body lined with thorns, a heart wrapped in razor wire; hard lines and jaded eyes.

Distant, aloof, guarded.

There was a time you were shades of pastel; when your heart knew love, and trust rested freely upon your fingertips.

There was a time your days were painted with innocence. Where eager eyes gazed at the world with hope and wonder, your heart still shiny and new.

But all of this changed the moment you were betrayed by someone you loved. Someone you trusted. Someone who should have protected you. Someone who hurt you instead. Someone who allowed you to be hurt by others.

There is little else that shatters a heart as much as the pain of betrayal. It tears you open, rips your heart out of your chest. You don’t want to put it back, you want to leave it on the floor to bleed until there is nothing left, until the blood runs dry and you no longer have to feel a damn thing anymore. But you can’t. You have to go on. So you pick your heart off the floor and place it back inside your hollow chest.

Except, the heart that you put back is never the same heart. It is wounded, war-torn. It no longer seeks love, but only to protect itself from the pain of ever being betrayed again.

A heart that is betrayed is changed forever.

No longer will it trust anyone again, but greets every person with reservation and fear; wary of a world that has proven to only take advantage for its own benefit. It remains hyper-vigilant in its desperate need to prove itself right; forever searching for the cracks inside another person that prove they too are unworthy of trust. It needs to know its enemy. It needs to remain one step in front at all times. Kindness is met with suspicion, for your heart has learned nothing comes without a cost – there are always strings, always an agenda. Your heart rejects kindness, remains cynical of it, refuses to accept it. It would rather suffer on its own than accept kindness that allows it to become vulnerable to another.

Your heart no longer knows how to trust itself either, and it makes vows to stay hard, to stay tough. Never will I want again. Never will I need again. Never will I trust again. Never will I love again. These vows are the cornerstones of the fortress it builds around itself, the strongholds that keep the walls in place. It gives up hope of ever being protected and instead learns to protect itself. It becomes a slave to its independence, its autonomy. Here, in its fortress, it is safe. Here, behind its walls, it can remain distant, removed.

Here, your heart can trust itself not to feel. 

For betrayal has taught your heart how dangerous it is to feel. To want, to need. To desire love, relationship, connection. No, your heart must deaden itself to its desires. It must wake each morning with one goal of attack – to kill your hungry soul. To destroy your desires before they destroy you. Your heart cannot afford to want, it is too dangerous, too much of a risk that will lead to being hurt again. This is how your heart stays safe – it refuses to be tempted by love ever again.

Except, your heart was created for relationship. Your heart was created for intimacy. But intimacy is the enemy, the biggest threat. Intimacy requires your heart to be vulnerable, to let someone close. To betray its own desires in the hope it will not be betrayed because of them. Intimacy is the most dangerous of all, and your heart turns itself away and chooses to live without hope of relationship, of closeness, of oneness with another.

Betrayal has changed your heart.

It has damaged your heart.

It has left it powerless, helpless, vulnerable, wounded, damaged, guarded, broken. Your heart can no longer trust, does not trust. It no longer believes in the goodness of anyone else’s heart. It no longer believes it is worthy of being loved, of being protected. It is tired from living in a constant state of anticipation and expectation that it will be hurt and betrayed once more. It no longer wants to love, no longer knows how to love. It has become numb, deadened to its desires, and you tell yourself you are content with this.

That here, you are safe. You are in control. You are untouchable.

Except, you are lonely. So goddamn lonely.

And this is the paradox of betrayal.

You are scared of relationship, yet relationship is the very thing that will heal your heart.

Dear heart, there is a need for you to be safe.

But there is a greater need for you to be loved.

The only way to heal is through love. You must find the courage to pull down your fortress. It has kept you safe. But you have dwelled long enough in your solitude. In your loneliness. It is time to lay down your weapons. Surrender is not defeat, but the end of the fight.

To love is to risk hurt. To trust is to risk betrayal. But you must risk so that you may heal.

Your heart has learned how to stay safe, how to survive.

Now, it must learn how to once again love.

Written by Kathy Parker

( with permission)

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  1. noonespecial December 11, 2017 Reply

    Broken hearts are bad. But the heart represents love. If you deny love, it will wither and you will become ill. Yes, and it is certainly true that only a harmonious relationship can heal the heart. Yes, you have to risk and trust.

  2. ARLENE G. BANUELOS December 11, 2017 Reply

    Indeed a betrayed heart hardens…learns to distrust…

  3. marjorie December 11, 2017 Reply

    This is how I have felt since and it is so so true —being betrayed is worse than death of a loved one

  4. Barbie December 11, 2017 Reply

    lay down my weapons, no… lower them I will do but never lay them down again…

  5. Jl December 12, 2017 Reply

    So true… I just was wondering couple of days back if I will ever hug anyone or even hold hands again.

  6. Donna M York December 15, 2017 Reply

    How very true…I believe this is extremely
    Important for those that find themselves
    In this type of condition to read..Think
    About this statement….How many of us
    Can relate to all that was said.!! Maybe
    Quite a few….The heart does go through
    So much anquish….In the case of betrayal
    It eliminates emotion….We may not
    Consciously be aware…But I believe our
    Unconscious acts on its own to protect
    Us…..In my opinion..,yes it would be
    Extremely difficult to repair your heart…
    But because of the fact that through our
    Heart…all emotions lye..And consciously
    We are aware of this….we should make
    A conscious effort to to take the risks needed to fill our hearts with trust and
    Love again…because without taking
    These risks..Our hearts will remain
    Empty….and I do believe non of us wants this….An empty heart.

  7. Donna MYork December 15, 2017 Reply

    My comment was just completed and I wanted it sent

  8. KathyNotNayNay January 26, 2018 Reply

    I will never risk and trust again. Been used and lied to for too long. Thank God I am done and will never ever be involved with another man again!!! I am very happy single. I love it!

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